I can't believe how desperate for friendship I am. When did I forget how to be okay with being alone?

Kyle is the only company I ever have and when I'm not with him I just sit alone in my bed reading or looking up recipes. I've never been so lonely in my life.

life is good.

trying so hard not to give in.

I'm not taking the job. It just won't work with school. It'll take me almost two years to get my license if I work at the salon all day an only go to school at night. I can't do that.

So, I'll be gone by December. I'm just not sure where I'm going yet....

I know nobody cares about knitting but I like it and I've been bored lately. I knit two things last night. I'm trying to use up all of this yarn I have from last winter. I want to buy new colors and less acrylics so I am just knitting tons of easy things that I'll probably end up giving to people if they want them.







such an ugly hat. it would be cute if the yarn wasn't calico.

edit: I dyed the hat a dark plum color. I forgot I had yarn dyes and luckily the hat is wool or else the dyes would not have absorbed (they are meant for animal fibers only.)

GODDAMN.

chance301 (7:53:25 PM): im imagining you sitting at your computer thinking you are doing everything correctly
chance301 (7:53:45 PM): and just staring blankly at the screen misspelling everything and not making any sense
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:08 PM): hahah
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:11 PM): om just singing songs
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:13 PM): petting the cat
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:16 PM): and ID DANCEdD
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:18 PM): omg a song
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:24 PM): few songs makes me dance
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:32 PM): but this dude sont me one on aim
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:33 PM): that i looooooo
All Eyez On Suzi (7:54:34 PM): ve



sometimes it's like I don't even have a brain.